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Its hard.

..... Its so hard. I cant even put it into words. I feel... useless. I feel almost worthless. I had so many dreams.... I feel like you took such a big part of me... walked away and left me here to die.

I feel lonely. I feel scared. I feel paranoid. I want to prove so much.... That I can be independent... that I do not need you. Its such a hard time... So hard getting through the day... waking up.... faking that smile. Lieing to myself that I'm okay. You broke me. Bruised me. And used me...... What am i suppost to be left with..? How much longer am I going to cry....

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bystritsky
May. 10th, 2012 06:45 am (UTC)
You'll be in Moscow on 22. Or smth like that, right? Come and we'll find how to amuse you. ;-)
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