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The pain.......

The pain... just dosent go away.......................... I dont understand why I cry every night... Why no matter what nothing changes. Matthew never changes. He can never be you. Im stuck with everything. Im caught in the middle.......... :'( With noone to cry out to.

Hes still coming for my birthday and I hate it..... Bcause I cant stop him. My family wants to meet him... and now its too late. I dont want to get involved again. I dont want to realize Ive missed him.

He does not make me happy..........:"( He has made me miserable. And I dont want that in my life. Ive suffered enough.

And now youre gone Cj.... Im left alone.

I missed my chance at this runway/catalog audition...... and now just.... everything seems to be falling apart. I dont know how things are going to get better..............

:'(

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nefarious23love
Mar. 8th, 2012 07:03 am (UTC)
I'm sorry for everything thats going on. Im not sure whats up But I hope everything will work out and I'm sure everything will get better in time
natashacakes
Mar. 19th, 2012 03:00 am (UTC)
Thank you so much sweetie <3
nefarious23love
May. 3rd, 2012 04:38 am (UTC)
Your welcome =]
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